Open Question: What does this mean? What is wrong with me?

I can't stand staying away from home. My mom has died when I was 6, and I can't help staying away from home, or at least away from my grandmother. I can't even sleep in my own room, because for some reason I am not able to sleep and I don't feel safe without my family. Now, I have to sleep with my grandmother every night, and even sometimes, it takes me half an hour or even one hour to two